I had testicular cancer at 34, then prostate cancer at the ripe old age of 40. Treated the first with surgery and radiation, and the prostate with radioactive seeds (brachytherapy
). That led to a horrific short-term side effect immediately after the surgery. I won't go into detail but it was straight out of Dante's 'Inferno,' and if I wasn't an atheist I'd swear I felt the touch of the angel of death. I haven't been the same since.
These days I go in for a PSA
test every four months and it's never been particularly stable with me. Now I'm on hormones to bring it down further. There's other complicating factors, but I won't bore you with them.
Three years ago my father (not related by blood) was diagnosed with multiple myeloma
. Last August he hit the home stretch, was unresponsive by mid October, and died the Sunday after Thanksgiving. I don't want to go out like that. I don't want to go out at all, obviously, but particularly not with something eating my brain.
Other people, many of you in fact, walk around with normal sex lives and kids, and decades and decades and decades to look forward to getting old, watching more stupid summer movies, play video games, see your kids grow up, all that shit.
I'm not going to tell you how you should appreciate it or smell roses or anything. No matter what kind of tragedy humans hear about or see happening to other humans, even close loved ones, we can't allow ourselves to dwell on it because it would immobilize us in either dread or hedonism.
But yeah, fuck cancer straight to Hell. All other diseases too, but I've got a personal beef with this one. If the story of Randall's girlfriend meant anything to anyone who read his strips or blog posts -- and you've got a decent job -- then man-up or woman-up and donate fucking something
to the American Cancer Society
(or other medical research-oriented charity of your choice). That link goes directly to their donation page and the minimum is $5.00. I just donated in memory of my late father.
But if you didn't click it, then congratulations. You've saved enough money for this