I am angry - yet another keeping-track-of-stuff-thread

[AngrySquirrel]

Stats:
Height: 150cm
Current weight: 78kg

Problem: Gigantic boobs (from now on referred to only as Batman & Robin).

I have applied for breast-reduction surgery. An application that was denied due to my BMI being to high. My initial response to this is ofc to find whoever decides this and yell at them until they see it my way. Alas the hospital won't give me their names so that option is being denied to me. That leaves me with the other option of dropping 14kg so my BMI gets below the required 27. I'm not sure if this can be done without losing some muscle mass, but I'm going to make an attempt. Batman & Robin are destroying my back and needs to go.

My brother has also challenged me to see which one of us can drop the biggest percentage of our body-weight by the next time we meet (sometime in July). At stake is our vast collection of x-men comics from the 80ies/early 90ies.

What this thread is for:
I'll write down what I'm doing and not doing here. I'll also write my mood. I'll try to update this twice a week. I do not want obvious advice as that will only piss me off, so if you really feel you need to tell me something I already know here, or otherwise show no sign of having read anything I've said, I reserve the right to tell you to kindly fuck the fuck off.

New stuff to do:
Drop sugar. Replace soda with water, replace snacks with nuts, carrots and sugarpeas.
Replace some of the weight training with cardio.
Bike or walk to work.
Find some better alternative for lunch.
Alcohol-binging reserved for 1 day per month.
No more frozen-pizza dinner, you know how to cook, do it.

Old stuff to keep up:
attend kickboxing a minimum of 3 times a week
Keep walking the stairs.
Practice juggling whenever bored.
Keep up urban exploring walks.

Todays grumpiness levels: Massive. No sugar, no caffeine, got a cold and a headache, very much ready to punch stuff.

[AngrySquirrel]

Thursday 12.05.11

Food:
Breakfast: Cranberries, nuts and oatmeal.
Lunch: Chicken salad, not very tasty.
Dinner: 3 slices of frozen pizza

Drink:
6 liters of water
3 glasses of white wine
1 sip of nail-polish

Activities:
Walked 10,5 km
6 times up and down stairs to 4th floor

Mood:
Grump-levels: stable
Too much energy, head is going too fast. Rambly.

Notes: Friend returned from trip. Shared a bottle of wine and a frozen pizza in celebration. Nail-polish is not tasty.

Intense back-pain, knee-joint also acting up and wrist aching. Final painkiller to be taken in 30 minutes. Remembered other meds.

[AngrySquirrel]

Friday 13.05.11
Breakfast: Chicken baguette.
Lunch: Chicken salad (still not yummy)
Snacks: Handful of nuts and handful of sugarpeas after training
Dinner: 150g of pytt-i-panne
Late night food: pytt-i-panne leftovers (150g)

Drink: 6-7 liters of water, 1 glass of white wine, 3 tequila-based drinks

Activities: Biked 12km, 1 hour of sparring, walked 5 km, lots of dancing

Mood: happy but intense back-pain after training

Notes: Girls night out, good for mood, bad for not drinking

Saturday 14.05.11
Breakfast: 2 knäckebrød with cheese.
Lunch: a handful of nuts, remaining sugar peas.
Dinner: pasta with pork-meat and an egg (1 portion, sized 300g)
Snacks: potato-chips, cheese, crackers, cheese doodles.

Drink: lots of water, lost track. 1 glass of cola.

Activites: walked 5 km, not time for more.

Mood: alright, hyperactive spell during daytime, very tired and easily agitated at evening.

Notes: Eurovision party. Managed to keep myself off the alcohol, but couldn't stay away from snacks and cola that was offered by others. Not all that bad though given the circumstances.

[AngrySquirrel]

Sunday 16.05.11
Food: leftover pasta approx 150g
Drink: water
Activites: small trip to store and back, otherwise spent all day watching Static Shock
Mood: confrontational

Notes: cold + anti-social mood

[Ulc]

May I ask a question without getting kicked somewhere where it really hurts?

How often do you measure your weight?

[AngrySquirrel]

May I ask a question without getting kicked somewhere where it really hurts?

How often do you measure your weight?

Once a month at most. I try to avoid it as much as possible as it tends to trigger my eating disorder, especially when I'm already feeling low.

[AngrySquirrel]

Monday 16.05.11
Food:
Breakfast: remaining sugar peas (approx 6)
Lunch: 1 no-sugar yoghurt
Dinner: chicken salad (no dressing, still not yummy)
After-training food: satay marinaded chicken + rice (150g)

Drink: water, lots and lots of water.

Activities:
Biked 13,4 km
1 hour high-intensity kickboxing session

Mood: exhausted

Tuesday 17.05.11
National day, free from work.
No breakfast, no lunch.
Dinner: left over satay chicken and rice (200g)
Drink: lots and lots of water
Activites: walked 10 km
Mood and other stuff: Still got a cold.

[Ledah]

So yesterday you ate nothing until dinner? That certainly can't be healthy, and it wont help you with your goals on the long term.

[AngrySquirrel]

So yesterday you ate nothing until dinner? That certainly can't be healthy, and it wont help you with your goals on the long term.

Yes, that is quite obvious. I just don't remember that food is something I need unless I'm at work or there are people around to remind me.

[AngrySquirrel]

Wedensday 18.05.11
Food:
Breakfast/lunch: chicken salad (still not yummy goddammit)
Dinner: bean based nachos
Snacks: sugar peas

Still only drinking water

Activities: 1 hour high-intensity kickboxing
Biked: 15km

Mood: Bad.

Thursday 19.05.11
Breakfast: crackers
Lunch: Chicken baguette
Dinner: leftover nachos
Drinking: 0,5l ice tea, lots of water

Activities: walked 5km

Mood: tired

Notes: blood donation day so took bus and avoided exercise. That's also the reason for the crackers and the ice tea.

[Ulc]

Breakfast/lunch: chicken salad (still not yummy goddammit)

What are in this salad you keep complaining about?

Because really, making sure that the things you eat aren't distasteful is one of the most important things for avoiding binges - can't you add something to make it tasty? Even if it's a little fat or carbs, it's better than doing this for three months and then binge and swear never to go on a diet again.

[AngrySquirrel]

Breakfast/lunch: chicken salad (still not yummy goddammit)

What are in this salad you keep complaining about?

Because really, making sure that the things you eat aren't distasteful is one of the most important things for avoiding binges - can't you add something to make it tasty? Even if it's a little fat or carbs, it's better than doing this for three months and then binge and swear never to go on a diet again.

It's the only thing that's available while I'm at work that's both reasonably healthy, not insanely expensive and can be called filling enough for a dinner. It contains lettuce, tomatoes, red onion, corn, paprika, cucumber, a little bit of pasta and some chicken meat, it also comes with a little container of dressing which I generally don't add cause it tastes yucky. The problem with it is that I don't like tomatoes or cold chicken and since that's what it mainly contains I don't find it majorly tasty. It's only for a few weeks though, until we get a fridge installed at our new offices. Once that's in I shall make something a lot more awesome.

And I wouldn't call this a diet. The major changes made to my normal life-style are mainly a lack of ginormous amounts of soda and a stop to overeating on portion sizes. Otherwise I'm actually eating a bit more often than I've done before, because now I'm actually paying attention and realizing that I am going whole days without eating anything at all.

[AngrySquirrel]

Friday:
Food:
Breakfast: None
Lunch: 1/2 baguette
Dinner: chicken salad
After training: 1 handful of nuts + 1 handful of sugar peas
Because I was still desperately hungry: chicken wok

Drink
Water
1 glass of soda (0,33l)
1 glass of imperial stout (0,33l)

Notes: out with old classmates, leads to beer-drinking

Saturday:
Breakfast/lunch: remaining sugar peas and nuts
Dinner: pork and rice
Snacks: 1 handful of popcorn

Drink: Water, lots of alcohol

Notes: Friends decided we needed a binge, seeing at the world hadn't ended and all.

Sunday:
Breakfast/lunch: none
Snacks: grapes, some potato chips, 1 cookie
Dinner: potato bits, pork and onion

Notes: early rpg-session with new group. Didn't get time to make food before I went out and was out for close to the whole day. Next time I'll remember to bring food with me.

[AngrySquirrel]

Also: Went to doctor again today. We're sending in a new application for reduction mammoplasty. Did some more measurements this time.

Waist to hip ratio: 0,8
Weight: 76kg
Height: 154cm (I've grown!)

Also got a requisition for physical therapy. Probably starting in 2-3 weeks.

[AngrySquirrel]

Monday 23.05.11:
Food:
Breakfast: none
Lunch: ryebread with browncheese
Dinner: leftover potato bits, pork and onion, mixed with some soya-sauce and sweet chili. (250g)

Drink:
Water

Activities: biked 16 km.

Notes: Bad day, too much pain to go to kickboxing.

Otherstuff:
The physical therapist I was gonna start seeing had a cancellation tomorrow so I'll go see him then. Hopefully he can give me some direction on what I need to do.

[AngrySquirrel]

Tuesday 24.05.11
Drink: water
Food:
Lunch: Chicken baguette
Dinner: homemade pizza

activites: biked 19 km


Wedensday 25.05.11
Drink: water + coffee
Food:
Lunch: 2 slices of bread with browncheese
Dinner: leftover pizza

Activites: walked 18km
No kickboxing. Physical therapist provoked back too much for that.

Thursday 26.05.11:
Drink: water, 1 smoothie (0,3l), coffee
Food:
Breakfast: leftover pizza
Lunch: half a chicken baguette
Snacks: 1 bag of noodlesnacks
Dinner: Made homemade pizza

Activites: Biked 12km

Visited physical therapist on Wedensday, also took ultrasound of spine. I might have a mutation in my spine, but it's hard to tell if it's something I'm born with or something that has developed due to injuries, will know more after I get an x-ray. Most of my back problems can probably be fixed however, but it will take time. Going on Tuesday for meeting with nutritionist.

It's getting really difficult to force myself to eat stuff.

[Solt]

What you eat isn't that important. If you want this log to be useful, you have to also note how much and with enough details that you can calculate calories. As it is, if you can add that little extra bit of information you will have a very powerful data set here that will definitely help you lose the weight.

And if you are serious about this, it is worth it to get a scale for those times when you eat something that is not packaged. If you don't have one it's not catastrophic though, as there are plenty of places online to get estimates.

Also, along the same lines it would be useful if you noted the intensity of your workouts, ie, hilly vs. flat, average time per km, etc. Whether or not your level of fitness is improving could give valuable information.

It's getting really difficult to force myself to eat stuff.

Have you tried planning out your meals/snacks ahead of time?

[AngrySquirrel]

What you eat isn't that important. If you want this log to be useful, you have to also note how much and with enough details that you can calculate calories. As it is, if you can add that little extra bit of information you will have a very powerful data set here that will definitely help you lose the weight.

I'm doing this to help me, not you. I find this useful. I find calculating calorise a sure-fire way to get very sick very quick. So no, I won't be doing that.

Also, along the same lines it would be useful if you noted the intensity of your workouts, ie, hilly vs. flat, average time per km, etc. Whether or not your level of fitness is improving could give valuable information.

If I'm not sitting still I will be going on top intensity. I have only two settings, 0 and 11.

It's getting really difficult to force myself to eat stuff.

Have you tried planning out your meals/snacks ahead of time?

Of course. If I didn't plan anything I wouldn't eat anything.

At any rate, I'm taking a break from this for a while until I start feeling better and know I can handle this without feeling like shit. That time is not now.

[AngrySquirrel]

Current weight: 73,4 kg

Mood: Pretty good. Attended kickboxing/MMA yesterday, was probably the most brutal training so far this year. But I managed to keep up with everything, even when the others started falling off. Feel pretty good about that. Back is also much better thanks to physical therapy so now I can actually keep going until I get tired and not just until my back sends me to the ground.

Started on keto on Thursday. Kept at it without fail so far.

I do find it a bit funny that when I'm put on a diet I'm set to eat more than I do otherwise. Keto has so far made me very nauseous, but not noticing much difference outside of that.

[AngrySquirrel]

I've now moved and will be biking about 9km uphill every day for the rest of the summer (also 9km downhill but downhill don't count). The bad news is that kickboxing is on a break until August. The good news is that I now have access to a gym at work so I'll be going there after work as soon as I get things in order at my new apartment.

Still on keto. 1 failed day so far. Have now access to a kitchen, although it's still without any equipment.

[AngrySquirrel]

Current weight: 71.4 kg

Been on a vacation, some problems following the keto-thing. Loads and loads of walking. 7 mountain tops reached in 6 days, 1 pair of shoes worn out. I can walk on paths and soft ground without severe back-pains, but asphalt and gravel is completely out.

[AngrySquirrel]

Current weight: Unknown. Don't have any scales.

Feeling quite shit. I know logically that I've lost weight but my mind sees me as worse than ever before. Just a big blob of fat rolling around that people feel the need to be polite to. I really hate this. Need my support-people to return from their holidays so I can talk to people who get it. At least I'm over halfway to my goal.

Daily food last week:
Breakfast:
1 egg, 2 slices of bacon

Lunch:
Low carb biscuits with cheese.

Dinner:
Chicken
1/2 paprika
Sour cream (approx 100g)
Spice of some sort, not containing glutamat.

Overall intake of karbohydrates per day: just under 30g.

[Evengeduld]

At least I'm over halfway to my goal.

A Cheer for the Squirrel is in place

[AngrySquirrel]

Current weight: 68 kg

Not being quite as strict with what I eat anymore. Still no sugar or carbs when alone, but when hanging out with other people I will say fuck it.

4 more kgs and I can send in another application for surgery.

[The EGE]

Well done AS. Good luck on the last 4 kg.

[AngrySquirrel]

Well done AS. Good luck on the last 4 kg.

Thanks

[AngrySquirrel]

Weight: 67 kg.

Going rather slow now, but still going down. Doing well mostly, although very stressed and I'm getting bursts of panic-attacks if I'm left alone too long. New goal to work against: 19th of November there's a new grading and on the 20th there's the regional championsships which I intend to participate in. Well, at least I'll participate in one of them.

[savanik]

Weight: 67 kg.

Going rather slow now, but still going down. Doing well mostly, although very stressed and I'm getting bursts of panic-attacks if I'm left alone too long. New goal to work against: 19th of November there's a new grading and on the 20th there's the regional championsships which I intend to participate in. Well, at least I'll participate in one of them.

That's pretty awesome. Losing 1 kg a month is just fine for at that weight. Sounds like you should be pretty much where you want to be by December. Have you checked to see how much fat you've got left to burn?

What're you competing in? *curious*

[AngrySquirrel]

That's pretty awesome. Losing 1 kg a month is just fine for at that weight. Sounds like you should be pretty much where you want to be by December. Have you checked to see how much fat you've got left to burn?

I'm not sure how to go about doing that. I mainly just know I need to lose 3 more kg to get a new evaluation for the surgery.

What're you competing in? *curious*

Kickboxing.

[AngrySquirrel]

I am taking a break from this as I am ill.

[AngrySquirrel]

Okay. I've dropped keeping track of what I'm eating since it's making behave rather stupid. But I am still training and there's a tournament coming up on the 20th which I intend to participate in.

Problem is, there's something wrong, and I don't know what's causing it. I feel fine mostly, but I can't concentrate, get dizzy over nothing and I run out of breath from doing almost nothing. I've asked for a doctor's appointment, but they didn't have a spot open until the 21st (which is something I could rant about quite a lot, but I'll try to restrain myself).

I can't do anything if I'm like this, but I need to keep training if I'm going to be ready for the tournament. This is very much frustrating.

[_-KM-_]

Just how often are you eating? Dizziness sounds like a side effect of undereating is all.

[AngrySquirrel]

Just how often are you eating? Dizziness sounds like a side effect of undereating is all.

Well, yea. I've been trying to force myself to eat a minimum of 3 meals a day (breakfast, lunch and dinner), but as I'm getting more and more problems staying motivated, and away from acting sick, I'm currently down to an average of 1 meal per day.

So, uhm update.

Current weight: unknown.

Training shut down for Christmas and I went on a vacation. Current exercise equals none and family dinners is forcing me to eat quite a lot more than I really want to. Which I guess is healthy considering I've been struggling a lot lately with my eating disorder, but isn't doing much good for my head nor weight goals. However, currently my weight goals are pretty unimportant, at least until I get my head good enough to handle it without getting obsessed.

[AngrySquirrel]

I am back at 67kg, and back at being not-sick and horrible, and I've got a new goal as well. Our kickboxing gym will shut down for the summer, so I am forced to look elsewhere for my exercise needs for a while, which means I have accepted the challenge of participating in a summer-run on the 11th of August.

The distance will either be 10km or 20km, this will be decided by the 28th of May (we need to test how good we're at running first since, while we have ambition, we're not really runners). My training partner isn't local either, so I'll be practicing on my own.

Starting premises: I am short, have astma, absolutely abhor running and avoid it at all costs, but I am as stubborn as a donkey on the moon.

So, I don't in any way, shape or form, know anything about running or how to get started on a practice schedule for that, so currently I'm prowling the nets for tips.

Edit: I'm mainly looking at this for guidance on how to get started and I'm considering starting at week 5 because I'm already quite comfortable with running for 5-10 minutes. Dunno if that's wise though, but we'll see, I'll adjust it when I get started.

Is running shoes and what you wear really all that important?

[philsov]

a donkey on the moon.

I've never heard that expression before. I like it!

Is running shoes and what you wear really all that important?

They are for me. The shoes, at least. Asics, for example, give me absolutely horrible shin splints. However, the new balance 850 series avoids this problem so that's what I personally swear by. Non-shoes, including specialty socks and shorts/shirts, I do not put much stock in, however.

[AngrySquirrel]

Is running shoes and what you wear really all that important?

They are for me. The shoes, at least. Asics, for example, give me absolutely horrible shin splints. However, the new balance 850 series avoids this problem so that's what I personally swear by. Non-shoes, including specialty socks and shorts/shirts, I do not put much stock in, however.

Hmm, okay, I'll see if I get any pains from my current shoes and see about getting new shoes if I do.

I've been out running twice since I decided to do that, which is twice in 3 days so not all that shabby. Currently following week 4 of the link I posted earlier (decided to start easy). Covering about 5km per run without feeling very winded, so the 10km goal is at least achievable. Might want to push myself for the 20km one.

[AngrySquirrel]

Currently running for 3x8minutes 3 times per week without significant problems. I think my shoes are good enough. Also walking a fucktonne. Given up on trying to track how much ground I'm covering, but with walking/running combined I'm at least covering 1,5 metric miles. So I suppose that's good. Unfortunately the person who challenged me to the race (and the reason I'm running) has mysteriously vanished (or is at least avoiding me).

[madd0ct0r]

i suppose it goes without saying you'll want a good strong sports bra for the run...
Shoes - your milage will vary. My preferred shoes for running are hiking boots but that's just habitual I suppose.

also - really do try and keep eating small amounts regularly - otherwise your body ends up in starvation mode where fat is hoarded and mammoths consumed... Maybe a bowl of fruit by the computer?

[AngrySquirrel]

i suppose it goes without saying you'll want a good strong sports bra for the run...

Well, duh.

Shoes - your milage will vary. My preferred shoes for running are hiking boots but that's just habitual I suppose.

I think my hiking shoes are good enough for me at the moment. As long as I stay off asphalt I don't run into any major impact related problems. I get some hip pain at times, but I think that has more to do with the way I sleep than the running.

also - really do try and keep eating small amounts regularly - otherwise your body ends up in starvation mode where fat is hoarded and mammoths consumed... Maybe a bowl of fruit by the computer?

It would just rot. I am trying not to think about food as that makes me feel really shit about everything ever. I have a coworker that is really keen on lunches that reminds me to eat those once a day and an alarm that goes off in the evening to remind me to grab dinner. Outside of that I don't want to deal with it.

[madd0ct0r]

well - if it gets you that wound up, yeah bollocks, it's not worth the stress.


re the shoes - when i said it's habitual I meant it - hiking boots 9 months of the year, army boots when i was at school, steelies on construction sites. I like the 'spring' you get from a really stiff sole, but they are VERY heavy compared to proper running shoes - I'd no doubt run faster with proper footwear.