Just to catch people up, here's my Week Three ramble. The important bit is at the end, though.
In case this seems disjointed, it was all written in chronological order, a little bit every day.
Weekends continue to be my Achilles Heel. My snacks have been healthy (except for those half-price dark chocolate stick things... HALF PRICE) but I am definitely eating too much when I am hanging around the house, since it’s all so tasty. Good for me (mostly), but too much anyways. I have still found enough time to work out, either WiiFit or Free Weights or Treadmill, at least, and I don’t ache like hell anymore.
And now I have a god-damn ear infection. Thanks, Doctor “Well, Let’s Just See What Your Persistent And Sleep-Preventing Cough Does For A Few More Weeks, Mmmkay?”
Legs sore from working out, but it’s nothing like the OH MY GOD I CAN’T SUPPORT MY OWN WEIGHT ache I had last week. This week it actually feels sort of good.
I know it’s not actually possible, maybe it’s just a reflection of positive thinking and... stuff, but I swear I look better in the mirror now. I still feel like a fat sack of crap, but the mirror is less insulting about it.
I took Wednesday off of exercising, since my entire body was throbbing and my right leg was cramping a bit, and I probably snacked a little more than I should have since my bronchitis is kicking my ass again, THEN I slept in on Thursday morning, but I feel a lot better for it. I know I’m not going as hardcore on this as I should, but when you’re sick (and my ear infection has migrated back to my LEFT ear) it’s difficult just to do acceptable. Bleargh.
On the plus side, I opted in for my company’s Full Year Membership to the gym a block from my office. I’m a little worried, since it’s what I would normally term a “hot fit people only gym”, and I feel more than a little out of place, but they are open early enough that I can go there BEFORE work, AT lunch, and maybe one or two days a week I can go there after work. If anyone laughs, I can crush them with my MASSIVE TORSO.
I can’t believe it, though... ONE DAY without exercise, and ONE DAY snacking a little more than usual, and ALL I CAN THINK ABOUT the next day is food. It’s ridiculous. I’m working on a building, redesigning the steel since the engineer apparently works with more dimensions than the three I’m used to, and ALL I WANT IS MEAT AND CHEESE. WITH SALT. ARGH.
I compromised: veggie sub, no mayo. I think I need more lettuce, olives and hot peppers next time. I think that, perhaps, a veggie sub could be my occasional treat / reward, since it still appeals as fast food AND junk food, but it’s a freakin’ veggie sub. When I develop a little more self control, a foot long could be TWO lunches. Nom!
On second thought... what the hell am I doing? $5.60 for a footlong veggie, $7.27 when the sale is over... Running a quick check on my own, I can make a footlong at home for $1.35, and half of that is bread and black olives. Why aren’t I living off of those sandwiches?! I could! They’re delicious! I would MURDER vegetables at this rate, especially since I could add tasty things Subway DOESN’T have like mushrooms and artichokes and garlic!
You know something, I bet I could. I bet I could go a WEEK eating those sandwiches at home, and nothing else. The only real dinger would be the starch load from bread... does anyone know any good ways to get around that? Super-multigrain bread? Tortillas? Eggo waffles?
Switched up my freeweights a little bit, now for arm curls and slow punches I hold BOTH big weights in one hand, and do one side at a time (it’s also probably good for my fingers, trying to hold both of those damn things at the same time). I wanna make my own 20lb weights now, or maybe 25’s should be next. I should hit Value Village and see what they have laying around. If I’m trying to built strength I need to up the weight.
Motivation roadblock: got laid off.
This is sort of sucking the will to diet out of me, but I am still exercising (though right now is a rest day, for what good it will do). I’m not eating junk food, I’m still laying off the sugar and I am still eating more veggies than before, but I am just eating more of what’s available. It’s only until the shock wears off, I tell myself.
I suppose this is as good a test as any of my resolve!
2012... you’re on notice.
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