@Black Dynamite: Some other things you can start while/before/after finding/seeing a therapist to get HRT (based on what other trans women wrote in this thread what they are doing):
- Practice your female voice. There are videos on Youtube with help.
- Buy some make-up, learn to use it, find out what you like. There are also videos for this.
- Buy some feminine clothes (if you like feminine clothes) and wear them at home for now ... or outside, if you feel okay with this.
- Get facial hair removal with lasers or eletricity or in other ways. This costs a bit. After you have told your mom, maybe she will support this financially.
- Consider if you want to remove other body hair, like on your legs. Try different ways, like shaving, epilation, waxing, chemical (Veet) or sugar-based (Moom) solutions. I prefer Veet, but not everybody's skin can stand this. I find epilation, waxing and Moom too painful.
Jessica wrote:Also, if you're going to go the getting yourself your own hormones route... just be careful. There are some serious health effects from some of those little awesome pills.
Could you give some examples? Other than clots I don't see much on Wikipedia. Though clots are, admittedly, terrible.
lists these risks for estrogene:
* heart attack, stroke - especially for women who are overweight, have diabetes, smoke
a lot and/or have high blood pressure
* high blood pressure - can lead to heart attack, regularly get your blood pressure checked! (<-- that's a translated quote)
* liver damage: Bromthal intake and output (not sure what that means), jaundice, glykogen reduction - check liver values regularly, avoid high alcohol consumption
* cancer of the skin - no definitive proof, but possibly linked to estrogen; cancer of the breasts - suspected link - get breasts checked every six months
* changes of the skin, pigment spots, allergies of the skin possible - however, improvement of allergies possible, too; also: akne improves
* migrane-like headaches, vision problems - rare, but important to watch, can be a hint at a stroke coming
* depression - use medication with less gestagene, add more vitamine B6 to food
* nausea, especially on high oral doses - use alternate ways like patches or take with food or before sleeping
* osteoporosis - eat more calcium and exercise
* weight gain, because gestagene increases appetite, estrogene increases water being put into body cells
* more epileptic fits if one already has epilepsy - use lower dose
Then there is a special paragraph that strongly recommends against smoking while taking estrogene.
* worse akne
* risk of cancer of the uterus and ovaries
* less appetite, feeling weak, nausea, vomitting
* kidney problems - rare
* high dose testosterone has a 25% risk of acroedema (water in cells)
* losing head hair
I am not sure if I translated all words correctly.